I have been busy, watching parts of my life implode, it is all unpleasant so I'll skip it here but I will share more mundane 'other' things.
My office moved in October just one floor up and one wing over, but my plants hate me as I am now on the north windows and they have been sitting on the south east windows for over ten years.
I think I may loose my 8-foot corn plant, it hasn't stopped losing leaves since we moved here. I feel bad for it as I know it should go in another window but I am in the north east corner and have no access to direct sunlight for it. Poor baby I am not even sure how I would get it home in this season or in my vehicle, its over 8-foot tall and I have a small four door sedan, not a suburban or a Yukon...
I may have to sneak it over to a window that I will have to visit.
People are stingy with their window space now though... so not fun for my plants, my overly large plants that are used to real sunlight and not stupid florescent lights. They used to be so green and beautiful... now I am losing leaves all the time...
Sigh (BIG Sigh) ... and a yawn. I'm tired, four days off from work and then to get up at 6:30 a.m. again sucks.
Oh well I have to make the money, the mortgage and other things must be paid.
I haven't even started to shop for the 25th... UGH! I haven't even thought too much about decorations either.
Ah it is all coming up WAY to fast for me! I wonder if I can just go and hide under the covers until it is all over? How many people who are used to getting awesome presents from me would forgive me? I think I am going to go hide and wait for 2014, I swear it will have to be a better year than 2013 has been.
Positive thoughts Deana, positive thoughts, you can do this! I know you can Deanaland has existed for 37 years now, you can make it!
Big changes are coming for 2014 I will try my best to blog on a regular basis again, but as I have said many times before "Do not hold your breath!" I will try but I make no promises!
Peace!
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Monday, December 2, 2013
Friday, April 20, 2012
Released from the Prison a.k.a. the Hopsital!!
Yes, its true, I am free.
They, the doctors, released me today from the boredom and captivity of the one room with a too of small bed.
I did not have pneumonia like they thought, but a very nasty chest infection that they now think they have on the run.
Granted I wasn't in the hospital for long, but I am truly hopeful now that this crud that has been torturing me since November has been attacked to the point of it never returning.
Yes, I know you probably think, two days isn't that long to be acting the way you are! Well let me tell you the fight beforehand that did start in November is what makes this seem so wonderful to me to be free.
I may have many weeks and months of medication to take, I may even have to keep taking medications for the rest of my life to make the crud stay gone, but even that will have been worth it, so long as it never comes back.
It stopped so many things in my life that I hope to soon be returning to, karate, walking up stairs without problems, lawn work. You know, the little things that make you happy.
Now, I am sure some of are now thinking, "How is lawn work something that you want to return to, hell, how is it anything you like doing?"
Well that has to do with my outlook, let us cover this briefly in a short possibly repetitive list:
1. It is great exercise, slowly toning the flab that I have;
2. I always see a result from doing lawn work, so that great accomplishment feeling;
3. It helps me get some sun on my seriously pale ass;
4. I get to dream of what it will look like finished someday; and
5. I know that I am one more step closer to the yard of my dreams, so I can start all over again.
Simple, and something that I haven't really gotten to miss, except for the snow shoveling. At times I was actually scared to go outside with the temperature change from the inside to outside. Yes, I know this winter was mild, but the temperature change was too great for me to handle with how my breathing was going. Most likely the milder weather was something that was exasperating my whole health issue.
It sucks to be scared to go outside. It puts so many things in your life on hold. I at times even felt like I was prisoner in my own home. The temperature difference would even make me scared of going to work, leaving for lunch for a breathing treatment at home, the drive home, or even a run to the store.
This winter was rough for me to say the least not just physically but mentally, I know to some it sounds wimpy, but this is my blog and it does have the title of "Schayde's Rants and Rambles," so this blog will be about what I please.
Now, after the last two days of extreme boredom a ton of medications and a promise of staying quiet at home for the next ten days to those doctors, I have hope and am just happy to see that light at the end of the tunnel and I know that I will finally reach it.
Maybe a little less sane than I was before, or maybe not, after all I haven't ever thought I was too sane, otherwise I wouldn't be who I am.
;)
Peace.
They, the doctors, released me today from the boredom and captivity of the one room with a too of small bed.
I did not have pneumonia like they thought, but a very nasty chest infection that they now think they have on the run.
Granted I wasn't in the hospital for long, but I am truly hopeful now that this crud that has been torturing me since November has been attacked to the point of it never returning.
Yes, I know you probably think, two days isn't that long to be acting the way you are! Well let me tell you the fight beforehand that did start in November is what makes this seem so wonderful to me to be free.
I may have many weeks and months of medication to take, I may even have to keep taking medications for the rest of my life to make the crud stay gone, but even that will have been worth it, so long as it never comes back.
It stopped so many things in my life that I hope to soon be returning to, karate, walking up stairs without problems, lawn work. You know, the little things that make you happy.
Now, I am sure some of are now thinking, "How is lawn work something that you want to return to, hell, how is it anything you like doing?"
Well that has to do with my outlook, let us cover this briefly in a short possibly repetitive list:
1. It is great exercise, slowly toning the flab that I have;
2. I always see a result from doing lawn work, so that great accomplishment feeling;
3. It helps me get some sun on my seriously pale ass;
4. I get to dream of what it will look like finished someday; and
5. I know that I am one more step closer to the yard of my dreams, so I can start all over again.
Simple, and something that I haven't really gotten to miss, except for the snow shoveling. At times I was actually scared to go outside with the temperature change from the inside to outside. Yes, I know this winter was mild, but the temperature change was too great for me to handle with how my breathing was going. Most likely the milder weather was something that was exasperating my whole health issue.
It sucks to be scared to go outside. It puts so many things in your life on hold. I at times even felt like I was prisoner in my own home. The temperature difference would even make me scared of going to work, leaving for lunch for a breathing treatment at home, the drive home, or even a run to the store.
This winter was rough for me to say the least not just physically but mentally, I know to some it sounds wimpy, but this is my blog and it does have the title of "Schayde's Rants and Rambles," so this blog will be about what I please.
Now, after the last two days of extreme boredom a ton of medications and a promise of staying quiet at home for the next ten days to those doctors, I have hope and am just happy to see that light at the end of the tunnel and I know that I will finally reach it.
Maybe a little less sane than I was before, or maybe not, after all I haven't ever thought I was too sane, otherwise I wouldn't be who I am.
;)
Peace.
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